am i being selfish..~

oh am i being selfish...~

lately i've been asking myself this question over and over again..and i am not sure whether there is certain answer for that question..

i'm confused and depressed...

i'm feel all alone unsecured...frustrated~

and sometimes motivated...

i'm not sure of myself anymore..

last week, we took "antidepressant drugs" for pharmacology subject..
and i found something in common with the condition described by the doctor..i felt some sort of afraid of myself..scared of my current conditions...

lately i've heard some of my friends and other medical students undergo pyschiatric therapy due to stress and other things too..

and it came across to my mind...
"do i need that treatment too?? and consultation from pyschiatrist??"

i keep wondering..till now..~

right now i'm trying to avoid thinking negative..because those thinkings only make me more suffer and feeling so unsecured..~

i wish i can get rid of those tangled feeling and get going on my life...~
pray for my well-being...~

a cup of coffee please~

how i wish for a cup of coffee right now..~
it's hard to live without water..oh please excuse my poor english, as i'm still crawling at it..

today, after a tiring day, how i wish for a quick bath..but it seems to be quite impossible, as there is no water left not even for making my cup of coffee...~

oh as this is my first post for my new blog..i will inroduce myself..i'm a simple person, i think..but my friend used to say that my way of thinking is quite complicated..tangled..most of the time..erm, i start this blog to try a new way to express myself..i thought why not have your own blog..it might be fun..
and i'm still studying..majoring in hmmm..better keep it secret..=P

i used to like strawberry..crazy about it..but now, my tendency is more to plum..i think i fall in love with plum right now..don't know why, i just like it~

oh how i crave for coffee right now~